its like i dropped into a washing machine..

Its so so funny, when you think everything is good and great and suddenly PMS takes over and brings you on a roller coaster ride..Somethings didnt mean to be what you think it is..I say something you take it in wrongly. I never meant to blame you.Never intended to but guess it came out like as if i was. I was strong, i persevered..I thought i was on the way of changing..In fact i was so proud of myself coz i thought i was stronger and independant now. But at the end of the day, i failed:(

Why has it always got to be me? why me doing all the waiting? why me doing all the changing? why me doing all the tolerating? When is it ever my turn where i get to come back to you waiting for me? Where were you when i get all upset and down? I feel so taken for granted..

Gosh...its been so long since all this tears could fall down again...I guess i really am upset...

No matter how strong i try to be, ive got my limits..im like a rubberband pulled to its limit...Somehow deep down in that heart of mine, in that core is a soft heart waiting to be loved and struggling to show true love...

I feel so tired...so drained out...

Yum yumm

Went to Veon's place for lunch..Great time of fellowship..I feel so full and satisfied now..

Its been such a long time since i had mee hoon soup! felt so much like home:)

and Chee made me this <3 its choco cake!*thank you!*

Life is wonderful don't you think?

Me happy so must you!

Im in a super good mood today:) My hair is longer now (Okay totally random) and went grocery shopping with Jayde! First time i bought less then she did and i didnt over explode my budget..Went jogging and although i still take an hour i can jog a further distance now! See everything is going well and the best thing is i dont have class tomorrow although i think i might go for an extra lecture tomorrow..

after all the assignments are handed in, i SO need to enjoy my mid semester break...ahhh all the sleepovers! F U N!!!! :)

January/February/March 2008?

sighhh...suddenly i miss the expensive buffet we had at Grand Millenium but most of all I miss them :/

The day feels so long...

Today feels so long..
I keep thinking its thursday and thats making the day feel even longer..
I have work to do yet im slacking, wasting time doing nothing..
I need the study mood!
Study mood where are you??

Exercise is making me FAT?!?!?!?!?

Ever since i started exercising..its making me fat..SeRiouSLY!! I am always hungry.. and so far the only thing that is helping me control is either going to bed when i feel hungry so ill sleep right through it or going blog hopping..More like online shopping blogs.Where ill tell myself i want to fit in those clothes so ive gotta stop eating..Next is to not stock up snacks like biscuits or chocolate at home. If i do even when im not hungry ill think of them! i know CRAZY!!! sighhhh

More fruits and vege..less meat! here we go!!!

ahyoooo fatness!!! okay prayer meeting calls..till next time!

River festival 2009

Went up to mount cootha with Jayde:) It was not as packed as going to south bank..the view was simply amazing and the fireworks..Gosh they just blow you away..They had heart shape and smiley face fireworks! The view and the feeling was just romantic..and they had plane performances! It was cold though....but thankfully Jayde has a car so no need to spend so much time in the cold!

Had Malaysian after that in Hawken's..Jayde's favourite! Im so bloated now! :)

Didnt get to take a picture though coz they didnt turn out good...

I love spending time with Jayde..It feels like Brisbane has more to do with her around.. It was fun just chatting although we were stuck in jam for about an hour.. But cars have heaters so that helped alot!

Cant wait till we go grocery shopping soon!

Just to give you a feel on what i saw tonight:)

oooooohhhh the sister just called me on skype....but i was greeted with " Hi Jeje Esther"....awwwww so cute cousin Aaron! i miss you!

Okays..thats all from me.. Good night world..xx

Sip sip sipping strawberry tea...

Happy Birthday girl!

Its great getting to know you.. My first ever Singaporean friend:)
Hope you had a great time picnic-ing with us!
More to come okay??
Enjoy your day!

Picnic at UQ Lakes!

Oh noooo..addicted to manga:/
The weekend is here!!! River Fest tmr..... =D

Blessed weekend peeps!

My hectic week is finally over!

hehe..i feel so relieved..my crazy 3-days in a row mid semester exams are over! all though they were killer papers..crying,stressing out and chopping garlic to release my stress was done yesterday......Since i know you guys miss me......

Updates...

Went for simply women on the 29th of August!

Esther-Siau Ying-Venurs

It was amazing...Really thought me alot..went to workshop on how to handle relationships....its not BGR relationships! those friend-friend relationship..i will be a better friend now!

And in the afternoon i joined the massage class! it was awesome possum..who wants massage??

31August

Kathy left, to go back and make a big impact in China....Amazing girl indeed from Judah 6..Farewells somehow reminded me on how i should enjoy my time here...Next time when its my turn..What would people say? The girl who never joins any activities but stay in her room?? Definitely not..Therefore i will enjoy myself from now on wards!

I survived 5 weeks by myself in Australia:) 10 weeks++ to go!

The Dude turns 19...Finally!!

Happy happy Birthday Big Boy!
Gosh it makes me feel super old.....
Wishing you a day filled with fun and surprises!
Hope you like the presentation and the present i got you!

Im sure Yew Jin did a pretty great job eh?

Now don't i deserve lots and lots of hugs and kisses??
i don care...fly to Australia now!!!

hehe..

I LOVE you!

busy busy...bzzzztt

The marketing text book is so thick, HMST has so much to memorize,chemistry hadnt got time to touch....die la die!

I have my stressful days too.....September is driving me crazy!